Motivation???

What drives you everyday, to do the same routine, to just get into that happy place, to wash and clean and cook, to get out of bed and get dressed, to be yourself, to please everyone else? I need to know! Are you motivated by guilt? love? faith? money? pride? pleasure? Do others motivate you? are you a free spirit? I would love to read what makes everyone tick. The whats,whos and whens. If you would like to share a story or a thought................I need to be motivated!!!
I am in a rut of nothingness, pain is at my side everyday, guilt drives me to do what is expected of me, and pride eats at me. Money is a thing of the past for me, as is faith and pleasure. I am motionless. I am alone in a crown of people. I'm tired of being tired and sick of being sick. I need to be motivated!!!